久违

今天是我生病的第十一天。。星期日就要出游了。。现在心情很差。。我真的能尽兴吗？。。不懂。。很讨厌咳嗽。。加上伤风。。非常好！！唉。。最近情绪蛮低落的。。可能。。（私事）。。吧。。我是一个怎样的人呢？？好想你们形容一下。。在你们[眼里]的我；[心里]的我。。坦白地形容吧。。今天在面子书游览了一些朋友的照片。。其中有我看了很不爽的。。好好笑哦。。我不爽什么呢？我也曾经给别人这样的感觉吧。。自己也不是好人。。凭什么讨厌这样的人呢。。不理。。就算是局外人，我还是不能接受。。倩啊。。倩。。放下吧。。放下执著。。为什么就是不能接受呢？。。是因为妒嫉吗？？现况不好吗？？其实很不错了。。应该要知足的。。为什么会觉得累呢。。生病害的吧。。感觉脱水酱。。就好像被隔离放在小桶里的生病小鱼。。等着哪天可以回归温暖的大海里。。刚刚才找到这张图片。。蛮喜欢它的颜色。。好柔。。好舒服。。天啊。。我把它送给你。。让我快点好起来吧。。真的很辛苦。。！！

Apple..

Today i felt so weird.. Everything looks so normal, but it turns out the other way around.. my mind was lost of control.. same as my body.. I always think of washing the apparatus carefully.. but still i broke a viscometer.. which my labmate and i use frequently.. I always want to  watch Piranha since its trailer was out.. thought it would be an excited movie like the old one.. but i can only use one word to describe it.. 'disgusting'.. really lost my appetite.. save my money for buying mcd.. thanks a lot.. and so i went back home to eat the only apple.. hahahahaha.. laughing out loud.. seed germination is happened in my apple.. The 1st time ever i saw this kind of situation.. What really happen today?? Everything i did, i watched, i ate was against me.. haiz...... I think i should go to sleep now.. hope i can get back my normal day tml.. pray hard.. >.<

Secrets..

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess
Til' all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw wink, no
I've been on the brink, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

My god, amazing how we got this far
It's like we're chasing all those stars
Who's driving shiny big black cars
And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve
And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Singing straight, too cold
I don't really like my flow, no, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

Oh, got no reason, got no shame
Got no family I can blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'mma tell you everything

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

All my secrets away

All my secrets away

厌倦

最近心情真的不怎么好。。甚至有时候觉得很讨厌。。不懂是我的脾气差了，还是我周遭的人变了。。唔。。应该是我不能忍了吧。。以前什么事情都尽量忍着。。不说出来。。只是希望大家平安和气。。常常告诉自己，既然做了就别后悔。。也别想什么回报。。可是今天竟然觉得很生气。。我也没要求什么。。朋友也好。。亲戚也好。。甚至家人。。最重要互相尊重。。礼让。。近期学着别太委屈自己。。因为没有人会珍惜的。。就算有，也是一霎那。。人的记忆多数是短暂的。。除非某件事或人，给你太深刻的印象，影 响。。要对自己好一点。。可能每个人都有委屈的时候。。可是你不是我，我也不是你。。所以别相提并论。。但是，一个人也不可以把自己看得太重。。太大。。“自己”，这两个字。。足以害了你。。每个人的性格特征，脾气爱好。。都不一样。。既然自己改不到，也不要影响别人。。试一下迁就他人。。应该不难的。。因为自己不喜欢，而不让别人去做，去吃。。太自私了。。做什么事也好，都要想两面，两边。。这样自己高兴，别人也开心。。皆大欢喜。。对吗？？呼。。。。。。我想是时候停了。。很夜了。。就写到这里吧。。心情也平复了。。爱睡了。。晚安。。

直到你不找我

今天，哭了。。生气的哭着，生气自己没用。。为什么还找不到工作。。是经济不景气吗？？不是。。是我，是自己。。太多顾虑了。。从《谈情说案》里得到一些启示，原来什么事情都要顾及别人的。。他们不是外人。。是你的家人，你爱的人。。大家都没有给我压力，就我自己太急了。。这三个月给我的感觉好像三年。。开始透不过气了。。好想离开这里，逃避现实。。可以吗？每个人都背负着不同的责任。。我也不例外。。刚刚终于看完这部电视剧了。。感动又感叹。。在想着我的生活也上演类似的戏码。。执著真的辛苦自己，又连累别人。。自视过高也害人不浅。。无论在爱情，工作，或其他方面都一样。。要记得：你选人，人选你。。有时候，大家放下身段也未尝不是一件好事。。也许很多事情好办多了。。对吗？唔。。累了。。头又痛了。。下次再想吧！！

我愿意，等待。。

离别是愁的，

像秋天里凄美的落叶。


离别是甜的，

像秋天里成熟的苹果。


离 别不是永别，

它代表人生新的起点，

也代表下一次的欢聚。


离别总是在愁与甜之间，

伤 感着离别，

期盼着欢聚。


*无尽的相思，无尽的等待*

大城小爱

今天无聊在家。。感觉蛮懒散的。。那是应该的啦。。因为昨天赶完论文的第一章到第三章给她。。是时候休息一下下的。。很久没找歌放在这了。。唔。。虽然这首歌蛮久了。。可是里面有些词可以表达我的心情。。“千万不要说天长地久”。。是这句吗？？哈哈。。