Praying..

Dear God.. May i know when can i be truly happy again? I'm always happy with my family and friends.. but.. .. Ok.. I know.. My stubbornness causes all the problems.. 是我自己看不开.. It's all my fault.. 是我自己太愚蠢.. What do You want me to do now? everyone says You have a plan.. that happened for the best.. is it true? All the things happened are for my own good? If it's true.. God.. can You at least send me an angel? >.<